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Name: Sarah
Gender: Female
Interests: Started July 4
Day 1: 500 calories (or less)
Day 2: 500 calories (or less)
3: 300 calories
4: 400 calories
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31: 800 calories
32: Fast
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Expertise:
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49: 150 calories
50: Fast
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Member Since:
6/24/2008
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| Sorry it took me so long to post again. It was amazing seeing him again! Halloween was a lot of fun. We went to a friend of mine's Halloween party, trick or treated and then retreated to my friend's room while everyone else hungout out back. I was really surprised at how much more comfortable I was with him. I remember being a lot more awkward with him the last time we did anything.
We stayed up until 4 in the morning watching movies after we got back to my house that night. It was an attempt to out stay my dad. He wouldn't let us upstairs by ourselves so we waited for him to go to bed. We tried to get out the Sunday but my dad wouldn't take us anywhere until that evening so we went for a walk. I ended up taking him to this tunnel thing because it was the only private place I could think of. That was an interesting time. Before I moved we were just barely starting anything sexual. Which was basically just him touching me in various places. He wasn't very good but I think being more comfortable with each other helped this time. Plus I got up the courage to do shit to him this time. I felt kind of bad though because he couldn't get me off when we were in the tunnel, so he got all self conscious. I kept trying to explain to him that it wasn't him and that I still like him but, I dunno, he got all weird about it. I tried pointing out that he was able to the night before so it wasn't him but whatever. We didn't have sex though. Still being a virgin I got all nervous about it, plus I kind of want to hear "I love you" first. Which after two and a half years he still didn't tell me. I thought he was going to say it while he was here but he didn't. He told me he thought about it but he's confused about it and he doesn't want to say it until he's 1oo% sure he means it. So I dunno, whatever.
So we saw Nightmare Before Christmas in 3-D that night and stay up until 6 in the morning watching movies, catching up and messing around. The last day he was here we took a walk and just hungout until I had to take him to the bus around 8 that night. I miss him so much more now. Ugh.
I was really amazed at how comfortable I was with him though. I showed him my boobs for the first time that first night and I was basically naked in the tunnel and I wasn't the least bit self conscious. It was weird. I expected to be awkward and self conscious but I was totally comfortable with him. It was amazing. Plus I didn't eat almost at all the whole time he was here. All I ate the whole four days was a celery stick, a few pieces of candy, an apple, and a small bowl of ramen. I felt really good. I didn't anything but a celery stick the first two days.
I don't mean this to be mean at all but my boy got bigger and I feel terrible because it made me feel slightly better about myself. Does that make me a bad person? I feel like it does. Especially since he's extremely self conscious and he suffers from the same bulimia bullshit that I do. Which was a huge surprise to me when I found out. He didn't tell me for the longest time, even after I told him about me but that's fine. I don't care though, I still like him just the same and he's still cute but I guess I just feel bad because it made me feel better about myself.
Ugh, I'm a horrible person. D:
But anyway I'm really fucking tired and this was really long so I'll add thinspo tomorrow morning. Sorry for wasting your time. Even though I know no one read it anyway.
What did you guys do for Halloween? Did anyone dress up? What were you?
I was a raver but someone actually asked me if I was Bella from Twilight. I was like "what the fuck? No!" hahaha
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| So I went 20 fucking hours and then I broke it. I need to do this.
So 24 hours fast. I'll take one of your advice and I'll go 12 hours and then have a small snack and then fast the remaining 12 hours. I guess I;ll start it now. It's 11:00 am. My boy should be getting here tomorrow at noon. So I guess it's a good time to start.
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Check back in a few hours. I'll have thinspo up.
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